LONG TIME....

Wow, it's been a long time since my last blog.

I guess i've been more busy with my myspace rather than here.

But i like xanga better, it's less crowded and more private, sort of.

Well, quite a few things have changed since my last blog. First off... my mother got married!!!! Yes... in the beginning of October! Yep, and about two weeks before her wedding I got engaged!!! YES, i'm engaged and i will get married in about 2 months now. A bit less than that... but it's coming up so fast!

So, yeah. Things are looking wonderfully... and I have to thank only one person, and that is JESUS CHRIST!

Yes... HE is who makes all these things possible. I am joyful and just enjoying life.

things are great.
I feel loved and part of a loving family.... and I just pray that i can continue to get closer to God everyday.

God bless you all and may HE keep you.

Once again I find myself here....

but I feel so alone.

I don't know why really... but I do....

I made a song for the Lord today, and it's good, I think... at least I think so....it's called, Beautiful, You Are....

I dunno, I might have to work on the title a bit, but it's coming along... well, it came along... sometime soon I'll write it down.... I have to figure out the chords and notes for it first...  but it was made with Love for God.... with True and sincerely surrender to Him....

I guess we don't really realize how much HE means to us, or how much we need HIM until we feel like this.... alone.... cause He's the only one that's left standing with you.... or not even with you.... He's standing and He's carrying me....

that's how I feel....

But i gotta go...

ok... bye

well..

I know i've abandoned my page... a bit...

But since i know not a lot of people check it and the ones that do are so wonderful... well...imma write about what's going on

My sister is rebelling...against me and my beliefs... my mom and I believe even God.
She knows better and yet is going for something I know is not right.... dating.... she's 15... the boy's almost 18....

I have never liked the guy... even to this day... why... ? call it discernment...
Not enough... well... everytime he's so rude to me... and he never admits to it to my sister.

Well... my belief is that if a guy wants something for real with a girl... He will respect each and every family memeber's decision. I believe a guy that wants something for real can wait until a girl is 18 to date her... if it's for real... if they're just playing around ... a guy won't wait...

So... because of that... and because I told him no... and told him rules that he pretty much stepped on... well... I don't like him....
Yes... I seem uptight... but remember this is MY little sister.... and a boy is up on her business... HELLO... she's 15!!!! Not grown up yet! HELLO

And if this boy is so dumb as to talk about me... regardless of what he says... if he talks about a family memeber, that comes to show the disrespect. And I dont' like it.

A good man... has to be respectful regardless of what is thrown at his face. And this boy ain't doing it...

So...

there is the issue... my spirit is trying to tell me that I need to be more mercyful... but sometimes I get so hurt because I can do nothing... because I'm getting attacked by my sister's rebellion against me....
I feel stepped on... I need prayer people...

This is my cry out for prayer..... please... I'm tired... and I'm hurting....

Please Pray for me

Currently Listening Butterfly Kisses (Shades Of Grace) By Bob Carlisle see related

A BROKEN HEART....

Sometimes we go through life, not realizing how much someone means to us. Everyday conversations we take for granted. Small demonstrations of affection we might overlook...   it happens all the time.

But I think we realize how much someone means to us, when that person with a couple words or actions alone brake our hearts.

It is then that we realize how much that someone truly means to us... I would urge you today, to not take anyone of your friends, family or others... for granted. Truthfully it hurts when they are there no more, the way they used to be. You cannot turn back time and make the hurt go away and restore what used to be. You alone cannot heal a broken heart.

But God can... in the moments when you feel broken hearted... or of a broken spirit... Go to God!
You might desire to find consolation in the arms of a loved one, maybe your mom, a best friend, etc... before you do... find your consolation in God... he promises to help and heal... like no one else can!  Only God can restore a relationship and in fact make it better... but first you must find yourself in Him... He will dry your tears and comfort your heart... slowly and tenderly He will heal it.

Just some words I had to share.

Truly guard your hearts and your friendships/relationships.

May God Bless you and give you wisdom to do so.

What were you doing  about 5-10 mins. ago???

Why do I ask??
Well, apparently whatever you're sowing in, you will also reap in.
So, if you were doing something not good, then, that's what you will get, where as if you were doing something good, you will reap good.

Galatians 6:7-9 says: "Do not be deceived, God is not mocked;
for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap.
For he who sows to his flesh will of the flesh reap corruption, but he who sows to the Spirit will of the Spirit reap everlasting life.
And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart."

~ So... if we sow in the flesh, we will reap CORRUPTION
~but... if we sow in the Spirit, we will reap EVERLASTING LIFE.

Hmmm... tough decision, huh??? not really!
I want to encourage you to sow in the Spirit, what does that mean???
It means, pray, open your Bible, talk with God, learn about Him, and what He has done for you and me.

Though it may be difficult to discipline yourself in order to do this, it's possible! You may begin with praying only for 5 minutes everyday... then the next week, you got for 10 minutes... and on and on... until you get to an hour or more.

As long as your heart is in the right place and you are striving to please Him then He will help you reap good things!

I encourage you young people...
you may think you know what God says and what He's all about... but have you spoken to him in the last couple days?? In the last 24 hours??? in the last hour??? in the last couple minutes???

How can you say you know, if you haven't even opened up the Bible??

Let us not be an ignorant generation... learn about God and all His goodness....

May God bless you with mercy and grace, and give you a tender heart....